Things done much even if forced become habits. That's why be careful of what you are used to do everyday. This is is going to be you.
Inside this brain of yours and that heart of yours, may be another world exists. However, people judge what you say and do not what you intend to do or what you feel like doing but can't.
Good intentions with delayed actions are much better than giving up what can't be done at the moment. Eventually, you will find your inner self overcoming your bad influences. Till this happens, try to understand people enough to avoid more mistakes in your life.